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Decluttering, Prayer & Fasting, and Emotional Wounds: A January Update

It’s been a long time since I just wrote about what’s been happening in my life. And honestly, I am not feeling very inspired when it comes to writing blog posts! I don’t have any big ideas to share, and the things that I would want to write about, I wonder if anyone would be interested in except myself. (Maybe I’ll end up writing about them anyway.)

A big focus for me lately has been decluttering my home. This is one of the things I may write about in a future blog post. It’s been a slow process, because I get sentimental about objects and agonize over each thing that I try to get rid of. But between selling things online, donating them, and using the trash bin once in a while I am gradually getting the house to where I want it to be. The exciting part, for me, is seeing a space that was previously cluttered with junk now open and available, and making it pretty with objects that I actually want to look at each day. My husband got me an Ikea gift card for Christmas, so I am planning to use that to buy some fake plants or a new piece of furniture as a sort of reward for getting rid of so much stuff.

My church is having its annual prayer and fasting month, a topic that I wrote about more in-depth last year. It’s been quite meaningful for me thus far, and I’ve been keeping track of insights and how the Lord is guiding me in my journal. One of my main personal prayer requests is a direction for my career in the future. But in response to all my petitions God has really pressed upon my heart the huge value of making my boys my priority right now, loving on them as much as I can while I have the chance. I get a very heavy impression that this time in their lives is pivotal in the spiritual sense and will impact their futures in countless ways. This realization has renewed my strength, focus, and dedication to be what they need in a mom. It is still difficult some days, as I often wrestle with inner struggles, fatigue, boredom, and frustration.

To expand on that last word – frustration – we have reached nearly two months here in Manitoba of being under extreme restrictions due to the pandemic. I haven’t been able to see family or friends, even during Christmas, aside from a few brief curbside visits; large portions of stores are completely blocked off so that we only buy essential items; and pretty much everything else is closed. I could go on but I won’t. Suffice it to say, I am holding out for the day that I am able to go out and buy a “non-essential” 2021 calendar! I love paper calendars, I hate using the one on my phone, and I need to keep track of meals and other events somehow. I’m running out of space on the bottom of the December 2020 page…

My messy meal plan

Moving back to prayer and fasting – another topic that has come up (somewhat unexpectedly) is relationship struggles. I feel that God has shown me I have a severe wound of rejection that hinders me from being able to connect with people the way that I desire to. This wound has come from a variety of situations throughout my life. If not for God, it would have been a fatal wound. The picture that comes to mind is of several swords in my mid-section, which is cut completely open. I’m sorry if this is a disturbing image but quite honestly, I have had great peace in this realization. God is like that. He sees not only my mistakes and sins, but the pain that lies behind them, and He desires to heal me.

And if there ever were a time to practice not taking things personally, not bearing grudges, and behaving decently despite differences of opinion – it would be now!

I know there is a very real possibility of things continuing to shift and change in 2021, both worldwide and in my personal life. This sometimes causes me to fear. However, I am encouraged by another picture that came to mind during my prayer and fasting time: an earthquake, causing fractures along fault lines that were actually all there in the first place, though we may have been unaware of them. I think this has been a time of adjusting, exposing, breaking, shaking away excess, and re-considering. I know that some not-so-nice areas of myself have been revealed lately, and shown for what they are. Now, I can fight them off through prayer with the help of the Holy Spirit.

I pray that you will stay strong in the Lord this year, and I look forward to reading the posts of all my favorite bloggers as I am able to do so in the coming months.

With warmest wishes and love,




Hi, I'm Lisa, a born-and-bred-in-Manitoba mom of 2 boys. Having lived in 7 different Manitoba towns or cities, I've managed to stay warm in them all πŸ˜œβ„. I am trained as a music therapist but currently work as a fulltime stay-at-home-mom by day, and a piano teacher in the evenings. By night, well...I sleep. Usually.

15 thoughts on “Decluttering, Prayer & Fasting, and Emotional Wounds: A January Update

  1. I love that you are taking this forced social “down time” to clean and organize! What a wonderful way to spend the day as opposed to staring at screens or ranting on Facebook πŸ™‚ I also have been very encouraged with the extra prayer time this month. God has used it to speak many encouraging things to me and to gently touch on some raw spots as well.

    Sounds like he’s decluttering your heart, even as you work on your home. Looking forward to reading more from you this year as well!

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  2. Lisa, I enjoy reading your posts so am glad to see your writing again. I feel like I am on a similar journey as God is unveiling those cracks in the fault line and challenging me to allow the Holy Spirit to work more deeply. Last year started a journey of God peeling off layers when it comes to dealing with rejection in particular. I’m not usually drawn to “self help” type books, but came across Lisa Terkeurst’s “Uninvited” and couldn’t put it down. I found so many insights and experienced healing that has freed me to reach out to others again. Then … wouldn’t you know, the end of the came year and I found myself tested in the very things I thought were behind me now. Funny how that works … I felt though, that I was better equipped to walk through this recent challenge.

    I also relate to your feelings about the pandemic and the dramatic shifts happening in our world. I too, fight some fear … then flip over to experiencing peace, knowing that all of this shaking will ultimately reveal more and more of the Lord.

    Thanks for helping me feel like I’m not alone in these challenges. Looking forward to more from you this year!

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  3. “And if there ever were a time to practice not taking things personally, not bearing grudges, and behaving decently despite differences of opinion – it would be now!”

    Amen and amen!

    Lord, help us to bring you our hurts and to remember that you understand the motives of our hearts and the hearts of others. What a strange time we’re living in! Help us. We need you! Amen.

    Grace and peace to your heart today, Lisa. πŸ™‚


  4. We haven’t had the tight lockdown like you have. I have family in Quebec and friends in Ontario and they share the frustrations as you. I really couldn’t imagine not being able to buy something “they” have labeled as non-essential. For many of us a calendar (for me it’s a planner) is as essential as groceries!

    I hope you were able to get your calendar!!

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